Chicago Trip- I had to plan about 80-95% of it. David was supposed to plan it all. I had to take over. What else is new? Kind of disappointed. Need to do more research and print out maps to all the destinations I want to see. If only this trip hadn't been post-poned I could have had a trip to Rome planned myself.....or even to see relatives in Poland.....Chicago seems okay but nothing like Rome Italy. It's gonna be awkward with David....the closer it gets to my flight the more I seem to dislike the way david treats me on the phone. *Sigh* I had hoped he was the "one" but even given months to plan this trip he messed it up. He never goes out of his way for me and when he does do anything he ruins it by making me feel guilty. I am off boys for good. I am the only one who can ensure my happiness however it would have been nice to have someone care for me as much as I care for everyone else. I know you shouldn't expect people to make you happy but I didn't ask for constant disappointments and problems with complications either. I believe a guy is out there who puts in the effort I would into a relationship. Someone who makes life worth living and not dreading. Someone who makes me want to smile with joy and makes life bearble by being my rock, not the very thing undermining and making my life harder. Someone who can give me a simple flower from the garden, send me an email saying something silly but cheerful.....I'd take that over any "I love you's" fifty times a day with nothing to show for it....I hate those three words....they are a lie....guys should be banned from saying them unless they are willing to walk through burning coals to say them. THEN they can.....saying those words shouldn't guarantee them sex or make women jump up like desperate puppies.....Those words used to mean something....now it's like "Hi"......Guys wouldn't know love unless it bit them on the butt.....love is staying up with your sister cause she is sick with a 102 fever without being asked to....love is caring about someone above your own selfish needs....love is protecting someone by diffussing an argument......This trip will provide me with some photo's of a new area so stay tuned for submissions. I am planning on seeing a lot. Botanic Garden, Bucktown, Six Flags America, Horseback riding, Navy Pier, Renaissance Fair and others......I am debating punishing David by making im dance with Mr. Six Flags...for all the times he never took me dancing, danced with me, or not wanting to take me to prom........I will have my video camera ready.....Mr. Six Dance Party here we come.....ROFL....I need to clone myself and marry myself because then I'd know my partner would give 110% to the relationship....after this trip since the tickets are already bought I am debating my options...he'd better hope this trip is a blast if he knows what is good for him. He even was going to have me stay with strangers in the country side with no way so see the sights....*sigh*......I DESERVE A DAMN VACATION! I DESERVE FUN!!!!! I AM SO WHIPPING THE BOY FOR ALL THE TIMES HIS FRIENDS ACCUSSED ME OF DOING IT....TIME TO MAKE UP FOR LOST WHIPPING TIME!

*sigh* I wish guys like this existed...and if they did I'd so totally wait for some catch....most guys who spout this in my experience just want to get laid and then dump you or disappoint you [link]

Side note- Finally bikers get insulted when they think they are so cool.....ultimate win for the guy in the mini-van...nothing wrong with a guy in a minivan [link]